I must admit, I’m rubbernecking,
Curious as to what kind of egomaniacal, patriarchal, bullshit you’re regurgitating today.
The draw is like that of a terrible roadside collision:
Human nature gets the best of me and I cannot help but look at the certain disaster that will reveal itself to searching eyes.
And like that disaster that I don’t want to see, but do,
I always find myself returning to see what kind of deluded dramatic display you’ve written yourself into yet again,
With regard to none but yourself, how you crave the accreditation from those you believe to be your audience…
Could they, too, simply be incapable of averting their eyes?
Waiting for your inevitable crash and burn whilst silently laughing and shaking their heads at your blatant display of jackassery?
A moment of perfect synchronicity imbues one with perfectly pure lust,
What may pass as a moment of absolute clarity is merely insanity in guise.
Nothing is more true or certain than “if it seems too good to be true, than it probably is.”
And so I place myself confidently in the arms of imperfection.
Happiness ebbs and flows with the most certain uncertainty.
This, in striking contrast to the certain fleeting moments of happiness which are swiftly replaced by the most dire of miseries…relentless miseries with no end in sight.
Of what kind of insanity am I possessed to even begin to entertain the possibility of such an existence?
A brief high, a short romance and then the condemnation of a bitter, foul emptiness.
Yes, I will chose time and again the imperfection of years that have somehow become perfected by their own faults.
Something that has rooted itself deeply and permanently cannot be tarnished by those passing moments of the promise of something better…happiness cannot be extracted from something forged by lust created through anger and desperation.
From within your
Contriteness, find your
I choose not to be boxed in, bound by labels that are not definitive of who I am. I am everything and nothing all at once…